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I was going to email this to 3 of my closest friends that I wasn't able to IM tonight, or who didn't experience it first hand. anyway, this is my very interesting rant and ramble on a guy i'm not sure i'm interested in, but I definitely know he's interested in me. hehe. I might have to quit telling people I don't have time for a boyfriend, or i don't need one (well, I still don't need one) but "I don't have one" might definitely become a lie.
I hope this doesn't sound cheesy or like I'm bragging and want the whole world to know. It's definitely not like that, but I thought this evening was so hilarious that I had to share it with my closest friends who were not there to enjoy this humorous event with me.
I've told everyone but Suzanne about Jason, and Erynn does not know the recent Jason happenings, so I have to back up. So Jason was on my friend's Hannah's brother dorm, and long story short, Me, her, Jason, another guy, and my room-mate Sarah, were supposed to go to the park one evening and just hang out. Well, it was too late when we got ready to go, so the other guy backed out and the 4 of us went to ice cream. Hannah ditched us and then Me, Sarah & Jason went to a movie. At the time Sarah had a boyfriend, so that put Jason onto me instead of the prettier Sarah. Hehe. (Of course you're going to get my version of the story and I have low self-esteem, especially when it comes to my appearance). Well, nothing really happened much. Didn't talk to him hardly at all the rest of the semester, except for a message on Facebook here and there.
Anyway, spring semester we saw 2 movies together, his choices, and bad choices at that, Casino Royale and Because I Said So. The first very unrealistic fight scenes and the second just downright stupid. Well, I was hoping he would go home for the summer, meet up with some Tennessee chick, he'd forget all about me, and that would be the end of the story.
If that was so then there would be no reason for me to email you now. No. He's in Lynchburg, taking classes at Liberty for the summer, though he should be done July 13th (hope he doesn't find out that that's 3 days after my birthday). Crap, I need to take that off of facebook, so he won't find out. Anyway, he's been bugging me about doing something with him since he found out I was stilll in town. Well, I've kinda been blowin him off by being gone every weekend. I gave him an opportunity the week before going to California, but that fell through. Then he sent me a message right when I came back about "When are we going to hang out?"
Well, I ignored-did that one until he sent me another one this past Saturday. I was out of town but he asked "If you are in town, would you like to go to dinner at Applebee's tonight?" I got out of that one, but because a little West coast bird told me to stop dragging him along, I did reply back and explain that my weekends are booked, but during the week was okay. Hannah & I decided to go to a movie tonight, to see Wild Hogs at the dollar theater, and since it's family night and you can buy 3 or more tickets for the price of 50 cents a ticket, as opposed to $1.50 each, we were going to buy 3 tickets anyway. As we were cutting across Liberty campus, I got the guts to call and invite Jason. Part of me (just cuz I hate talking on the phone) wanted him to not answer and to get his voicemail. Well, since he's been so eager to do something with me, he answered on hte second ring. I invited him to come to the movie (which started in 20 minutes). I pulled a Jason, b/c he has this thing of asking last minute. Well, he agreed, eager little fellow and met us at the theater.
The movie was hilarious, and a couple of times was awkward having a guy sitting beside of me. I felt bad for him though. One because he was definitely ignored becuase it was Hannah I did all the talking to, and kinda left him out of the loop. But then supposedly on our way out of the theater he kept trying to put his hand on my back. This is according to Hannah. He never got the guts to though, although when he said good-bye he did manage to touch my shoulder briefly. Apparantly he tried several times, aiming higher and higher on my back until when he said bye and placed his hand briefly on my shoulder. Anyway, I'm so confused about the whole thing now, because I've no idea if I really want to continue this relationship or not, just cuz I don't want to hurt him. I'm afraid his emotions are in it more than mine are, that's always my problem anyway. I think I have this fear of being attached, I don't know why I do. Nothing has really happened for me to have developed that fear. Anyway, I just wanted to say that. I don't really know what I'm going to do about this though.
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